Unlikely.

If I didn’t have friends and family it would hurt I would have done it years ago.

I won’t do that to all of them though. I didn’t jump off that bridge after all. So for now I just kinda pray a random accident kills me instantly. I don’t wanna be a vegetable that they have to take care of, but if a brain aneurysm or some other act of God takes me out that would be whatever.